rawr. this is bad.
apparently, my blog has been appearing as a white screen for many people, including myself.
x_x i wanted to try changing the template, but there don't seem to be any nice simple template that fits my requirement.
and then i wanted to change blog, but it's so troublesome.
in addition, i don't know what name to change to;
i mean, i like thislife-.blogspot.com.
it sounds nice, distant and .. well, good.

rawrrrrr!

level 21 already.
lost all motivation to chiong level le.
haha. it's so demoralising to know that i'm one of the lousiest amateurs around.
so much so to the extent that i have this thought of quitting audition.
nonono. cannot.

anyway. school is starting really soon!
i'm kinda excited for it. haha.
orientation camp from the 12th of april to the 14th.
and business school orientation from the 19th to 20th.
by the way, business school has the shortest orientation!
and it really sucks, cause i feel orientation could get sooo fun!

ohwell. haha.
i watched the music and lyrics a few days back.
sweet show. (:
i think haley bennett is so hot!
she's apparently a new artiste.
haha, shall wait for more of her appearance.

i went to pbunk with yu yesterday!
$12.10; rawr, so expensive!
i wanted to sign up for membership actually.
but it's really stupid.
i pay the amount for one year, but my membership will expire this may 31.
so i forgoed the idea, and paid the non-members the price.
yu only had to pay $7.90. so good!
ohwells. haha.

hm, i've got alot of shows i wanna watch!
like, mr bean's holidays, bridge to terabithia, ninja turtle, harry potter!
and i'm waiting waiting waiting for harry potter book 7 to be released!
:D

okay luh, nothing much these days.
just have been audition-ing quite a bit.
xD
and i spent $100 bucks in two days!
rawrr, so broke!

but my mum, being very nice and angelic, gave me an extra $50. :D
so nice hor! that's my mum. xD
and i'm very similar to my mum! xP
hahaha.

kay luh. sick of this blog not being able to be read.
so i don't know if i'd be blogging much ..
anyways.
take cares!
love! ^^

如果心变了，怎么会不明显？

and i realised, just one lie could destroy everything one had taken so long to build.

i'm sorry if i've been giving you such a hard time.
maybe i just ain't good enough.
maybe this whole thing is just fake.
and just maybe, we should end it all.
i can't believe you told her that ..

i can't believe you lied, really can't.
you know when i found out you did, i thought i was having a very bad nightmare.
and when i used the computer, i kept hearing you call me. "baby, baby, baby .."
i turned back.
three times.
but i did not see you.

you didn't even look guilty after lying to me.
how could you.

all those reasons you gave me for lying to me,
they didn't convince me, not at all.

all i know is, if you had chosen not to lie to me,
i wouldn't have been so heartbroken.
it's so heart shattering you know ..
the mere thought that you did lie to me.
i highly doubt i would have been angry if you had told me the truth,
but even if i did get angry, i wouldn't be .. depressed.

you lied to me over such a simple issue.
why did you, could you tell me please.
you know, just by lying to me over such a stupid issue,
it breaks any trust that i had placed in you.
and there was so much of it ..
so much that it hurts me real bad now.

if i didn't go over today, this lie wouldn't have been discovered right?
just this alone makes me feel that you could have lied to me many other times.
just that i was unaware.

why ..


你的爱已经不同。
我再也不懂怎样面对这样的爱。

is it because of the late hours or what?
why am i emo-ing so much these days?
rawr.
sighs.

went out with hiro, jan, chong and alvin to watch the messenger yesterday.
my first horror movie in theatres!
i was really scared.
half the time i was covering my face with hiro's hands.
rawr. :(
but i think it had a beautiful ending.
most importantly, there was a really cute baby in the movie! :D
haha. ^^

anyway.
now i understand why people say that males and females are from two different planets.
personal experience is better than anything.

ohwells.
not feeling that good now.
shall make a move first.

takecares. (:

lynette was the happiest girl on earth on 20th march 2007! :D

everyone is so nice to lyn!
lyn is very happy! ^^

well, excluding the fact that i'm sick
and that i got alot of mosquito bites today.

woohoo!
mummie bought a swensen's mango ice cream cake for me!
yayy! :D
so niceeeeee of her please! ^^

i bought alot of stationaries.
planning to create something beautiful out of them. :D
for personal use though.
hahahas.

kay lah. so late le.
go sleep le.
takecares! :D

thanks for today.
totally loved.
(:

lyn fell sick today. :(
i felt feverish the whole day lah. x_x

slept at four plus.
woke up at eight or something.
audition-ed for a while.
ate breakfast.
then went back to bed.
keep waking up now and then. x_x
slept till about four plus.

blahh. was supposed to go mount elizabeth today.
slept too much.
anyway, i was too lazy and felt too sick to go today.

cooked pasta for my brothers. (:
and cheese prawns! ^^
leonard biked me to the supermarket to get the ingredients.
he's damn scary lah;
keep turning right and left. x_x
i felt like slapping him i swear.
he still ask me don't lean on him.
rawr!

hm. going to mount elizabeth tomorrow.
no choice. x_x
then got to make an appointment with some medical clinic.
it's part of the enrolment procedure. -rollseyes.
i swear the enrolment procedure to poly is damn troublesome.
x_x grr.
ahh.


i took a screenshot of my cute face in audition.
but cannot paste leh. x_x
tried going back to take another one,
but a void attempt.
rawrr!

okay, nevermind.
another day.

ohwells.
should i go for freshmen orientation camp?
seems fun.
but it clashes with one of my scheduled dates.
rawrr. :(

yayy!
i just found back my long lost friend! :D
samantha lee suppiah!
i swear i miss her.

woohoo!

went out with daddie and brothers today.
ate at .. jerry grill and bbq or something.
hahas. $161! omg.
so scary.
we barely ordered anything luh.
but hor, the food there quite nice. :D
hahas.

then don't know where to go le.
leonard went cineleisure to watch some dance competition.
so willard and me headed to egames!

by the way, today i npc-ed!
i feel so proud of myself.
-pats.
three days ago, i can barely 8k.
and today i clubber npc-ed!
lyn rocks! xD
loll. earned like 150k dens.

woohoo!
audition rocks. :DD


爱的理由不会有错
就算换了时空也会作相同的梦
伸出手请带我走~

--- -------

and i wish you guys could see the replay of my life;
to tell me what i should have felt back then,
what i should have done
and how i should have reacted to everything.

but no one was there to guide me.
and now i don't even know whether i'm wrong or right.

i feel so alone once again,
like i'm the only one standing on my side.
and if i were to back off,
i'll fall right off the cliff.

did i overdramatise everything myself.
or is it how everyone else would feel.

with no wish to survive,
i pen down these words.

went to parkway with mummie, grandma and brothers today! :D
was very much happy. ^^
cause i don't get to go out with mummie often.
but everyone we go out, she'll have to spend alot.
hahahas.

we had our wonderful lunch at sakae sushi.
their tepanyaki, as always.
whenever we end up at parkway,
we'll eat there.
-wonders.
a total bill of $114 with a 10% discount. (:

then we walked around and around.
didn't get anything.
headed for poh khim because leonard wanted to go.
bought loads of vcds.
woohoo! i'll be entertained till poly life starts. :D
spent $168 when almost all our items had a 50% discount
and $20 off our subtotal amount.

then mummie was so nice!
she gave each of us some money,
and even paid for the cab leonard and i took!
hahas. my mummie rocks! :D

anyway.
i'm level 19 already! :D
did it at my first try! ^^
but now the speed of my license song is 130bpm. x_x
sian diao. but now i love 8k! :D

hahas. so random.
kay luh, i go audition le.
yayy! :D

mummie changed her phone again!
she traded in her k800i for w880i.
and i tell you, that phone is so pretty and slim!
my w850i is 3 times thicker than that phone!
but i still love my 850i. :D
she bought it without contract and it's a first-hand.
supposedly cost 770$?
but i think she paid 400$ plus or something.
prettyy!

anyway. it's so late le. :(
i finished auditioning quite some time ago.
don't know what i've been doing.
hahas.

kindly ask me out!
i'm so bored at home.

anyway. don't know where i've been spending my money on.
my money's like all gone!
nevermind, quickly sell my w810i,
sell my graphic calculator.
and i should have about 300$.
:D yay. then my bank got money again.

1000$, here i come! :D

finding my way.
show me someone who can see beneath all these~

wheee!
i'll be able to change my avatars in 5 minutes' time!
hahas. nice avatars. :DD
i'll be so cute and pretty after that. xD
okay, maybe not in reality, but virtually is good enough for me.
hahahas.

hmm. auditioning at headquarters now.
meeting hiro later and eat dinner at suki!
yayy! :D

kay lah, basically i'm very euphoric over my new avatars. :D
hahas. and i can't wait for school to start! omg.
so bored le lah. :(
everyday sleep, eat, play then back to sleep.
cannot take it. ahhhhhh.

AND I'M GETTING SO FAT.
omg. :(
i need to exercise!
and i want to go to the library to read up some stuff.

bleh. wish i'll have the discipline before school starts.
but for now,
hooray to my new avatars! :D

loveyouguys. :D

to mr ronald/lance chew jie yong.
once again, you're such a bastard. (:
as always, you never make me fail to see the ugliness of man.
thanks for the reminder, and i'll will definitely keep that in mind.
and like you don't talk about how many girls approach you for your numbers;
you have absolutely no right to speak of me in that manner.
please be reminded by your ugliness and infantility, in my perspective.

now, freak off.

--- -------

now you've shown yourself deserving of this entry.
bloody bastard, nice try.
seriously, you've now proven to me that you are worthy of none of my sympathy, forgiveness and every other goodness.
so now, kindly f--- off like how you told me too.
me intruding your life? har.
look who's talking man.
sad for you, i managed to track down the ip address.
to think i actually apologised to you,
and you treated me like a freaking dog.

and you have no right to talk in that manner to my friends.
freaking no right.

if my friends are losers,
i really don't know what you are.
f---ed up loser?
that would be too much of an understatement.

you want hiro to improve to what?
like you?
a f---ing hypocrite, liar, bastard, asinine?

"and as i've already said, it's not me."
what a freaking liar.
if we are brainless shits, you are definitely worse than shit.
and we were apparently all smart to have came to the same conclusion,
which happened to be the truth, wasn't it?

hahas. and because you are not my friend,
you're probably a bigger loser.

freak off.
my last warning to you.
otherwise, i'll start screwing up your life like how you screwed up mine.
and you'd have totally deserved it;
for in my full eighteen years on planet earth,
i have yet to meet someone like you.
you are the first, and will be the last.

har. i can't believe this.
for once, i'm actually hoping someone gets into hell.

damn you lyn.
but damn-er you ronald.

--- -------

oh yah, i forgot.
SO WHAT IF I THINK I AM OH-SO-VERY-ATTRACTIVE?
i think i AM attractive.
and too bad for you, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.
since you beg to differ,
then scram.
i'm not begging you to read my blog anyway.
in fact, i DON'T EVEN WANT you to read.
har.

woohooooooo!
i got my w850i white already! :DD
daddie came to my place and passed it to me.
hahas. though i paid $150 for it,
i think it's super worth it! :D
anyway, if i go sell my w810i,
i think i'll get back the money anyway.
hahas.
yayyie! ^^

okay. i'm like super happy now.
hahas. -mwacksphone!

hehe. ^^

hm, i finished watching the girl.
and it totally rocks!
just that, maybe i don't really like the ending.
like nothing special.
hahas. typical ending.
but still, the whole show is so nice!
hahas, thanks to lionel for lending it to me! (:

hmm, nothing much nowadays.
just slacking my life away,
waiting for poly life to start.

supposed to be going for the uan thing today.
but, eyes hurt like crazy.
and i slept late trying to finish the show.
so i told them i'll go for it another day.
yepps.

okay luh.
i go prepare my phone for usage le. :D
takecaresss!

lovelove! ^^

today was a crappy day.

i started my day with playing audition,
as i desperately wanted to do my license and gain another level.
and i took surprisingly long. -.-

then i came off,
started talking to alot of people on msn.
then decided it was late,
so i went to bathe.
i tried don't know how many pieces of clothings.
cause i wanted to wear my levi's jeans.
but i felt that i cannot want to wear that all the time,
so i insisted to myself that i should wear something else.
i think i tried 3 pairs of jeans and at least 4 tops?
loll. then i decided i should just wear the baggy pants. -.-
cause my feet pain mah, then i don't wanna wear my adidas.

aiya. in the end,
it was just me being fussy.
never did something like that in my life before.
think i'm going crazy, and vain. -.-

so i headed for bugis.
i walked damn slow.
hahas. then went to the arcade.
went down the escalator.
this guy tapped me on the shoulders.
and asked if we can be friends. -.-

and i tell you,
i swear he looks like that guy who asked me for my number back then.
he talks like him,
looks like him,
and gives the same reasons as him! x_x
and i think they used the same phone.
so i don't think i'm wrong to think that they are the same person.

i said if i could give my email address instead.
he said his phone is lousy and cannot access the internet,
and i wondered if there was any link.
then i said, you mean you don't have computers?
then he said he's computer illiterate.
what a stupid excuse lah, seriously.
in the end, i just gave this very ke lian look
and said "can i don't give?"
then he nodded, so i walked off.
went into the arcade, walked one round out.
was talking to grace on the phone.
came out, he saw me.
so he went up the escalator and i went into the toilet.

i tell you. he's damn desperate.
and i don't like him.
he asked for my number back then,
and being ultimately stupid and ignorant,
i gave.
he kept pestering me.
and he even pestered my friend on friendster!
-.- he introduced himself by another name,
and said he's interested in my friends.
when i questioned him,
he said his friend accessed into his account.
and then he blamed me, said i don't trust him.
dotssss. seriously.
he sucks.
and i'm damn unlucky to have met him again.
x_x

anyway.
i went up the escalator and down again.
and i did it a third time.
the third time, another person tapped me on my shoulders again.
i tell you, i was damn shocked.
i thought the guy got a girl after me this time. -.-
but no lah, was some girl working for uan academy.
she said she and her manager were sitting down for a drink.
then asked me if i'm interested in performing arts, etc.
i mean, since i was free,
i said okay. yeah.
so i passed her my contact.

i think this is the third time this uan came to me.
maybe it'll be cool. hahas.
shall go try out one day.

then hor.
i ate dinner at this restaurant,
and i totally regretted it.
the chef was soo rude. -.-

anyway.
i got into business at temasek polytechnic!
hahas. along with martin and alicia's cousin. ^^
so excited for freshman orientation camp!
heard from grace that it's 3 days 2 nights.
woohoo! :D

overwhelmed.

today met grace to pass her mummie's+grandma's redpackets for her.
but when i was reaching parkway,
i realised i forgot to bring it out.
so smart of me.

we walked around.
ate at mos burger.
went to espirit to buy grace's clothes.
then met changjin.
i missed her.
she bought me a new set of vcds,
because her ex lost two of the vcds i lent her.
accompanied changjin to eat.

that's all.


the rest of the day ..

before leaving, i apologised to her.
but she looked as if she hated me.
..

overwhelmed;
is what i feel now.

the taxi driver that drove me home scares me.
he drives darn fast,
and i was darn scared.
i thought he wanted to kill me.
and i was glad.

it's the first time i'm like that after so long.
lost, with no one to turn to.
when all i'm searching for is hope,
yet all i found was nothing but pain.

please don't make any more of those promises you can't keep.

i want to remember how to love someone wholeheartedly,
and not because i have to.
i want to remember how to forgive someone because i want to,
not because i can't help but to forgive.

i just heard something.
and i'm not really happy about it.
maybe happy or not happy is not the right word.
but somewhere along that line luh.


and now i've heard something else,
i'm definitely unhappy.

if this is how you settle your priorities,
i'm extremely disappointed,
not like i haven't tried it before.
and i'm sorry to say that i don't think i want to have anything to do with you.
it can take effect from anytime you like,
including now.


you were just like him.
i'm just a freaking substitute.

"no, you are not."

you only know how to say it.
but when the real situation comes,
actions tend to show me what truth really is.


if i'm being a bitch here,
i'm sorry.

although it's not the 237403948634th time you're doing this,
nor even the tenth time,
but it's at least a few times,
and this bitch here has feelings too, remember.

therefore,
this entry stands true.

i can't wait for freshman orientation camp.
i can't wait for freshman orientation camp.
i can't wait for freshman orientation camp.
i can't wait for freshman orientation camp.
i can't wait for freshman orientation camp.
i can't wait for freshman orientation camp.
i can't wait for freshman orientation camp.

hahas. i don't know why.
but i can't wait for poly admission. =D

hm, i miss ijc's uniform though. =(
and yingru's going into ijc. o.O

ohwells.

all my life, i've been searching for you
and i wonder if you've found me too

lynette. lyn. thirtysevenn.
28th january 1989.
temasekpoly. tpsu. bsc.
singing. dancing.
brokenlyn37@hotmail.com

IMEEM:) for music.

belts
laptop
anything cute at all (:
more songs for me to like!

aaron
amanda(:
amanda
amos
angela
apple
ashely(:

caleb(:
caroli
chang yong

derek(:
derek
dexter

edwin
eric

fion

geraldine koh
geraldine
gibson
gideon(:
glenn(:
grace(:

hadi
hakim(:
hakim
hannah
hiro(:

janice
jean
jel
jeslyn
joan
jolene
joyce(:
junhui(:

kah yuen
kelly
kevin(:
kimberly
kok chun
kok sheng

lai hock
lisheng
lynette teo

maybelin
maybelle(:
melisa

nicholas
nicholas tan

pamela

raazmy
rachel
rayna

sarah
sean(:
serene
shaun(:
shaz(:
shep(:
sin yan

tom(:

venos

wei da

xiu zhen

yeeping(:
yvonne

zhaopei

October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008

Designer:WANWEN:)
Basecodes:%PURPLE.candy-
Image Hosting: Photobucket
Brushes: xoxo
Image from Here:D
Tagboard: Cbox
Music: Imeem
Image edit from Adobe Photoshop CS2